Tentang kata Maaf

Memaafkan tak sesulit itu.. 

Itu... hanyalah memberikan sedikit tempat dari hatimu.

Seperti ayahku,yang memaafkanku,keluar dari tempat itu. 

Hal yang sangat sangat menakutkan waktu itu..

Ayahku, yang akhirnya mengantarku ke sekolah ini.

Ayahku yang tak pernah kutemui dirumah, kalopun bisa mungkin dalam hitungan jam saja.

Sungguh, Lelaki itu semakin sibuk, semakin beruban..

Jika beliau tidak pemaaf, lantas siapa sosok laki-laki kemarin?

Seperti ibuku. Perempuan cantik itu..

Perempuan yang menemaniku mengatasi rasa sulit..Menerima kekalahan..

Perempuan yang selalu menuliskan kemarahannya diatas sebuah kertas, dan setelah itu tak ada lagi kemarahan.

Banyak hal hebat yang tersirat dari tetes airmatanya. 

"Mbak. Ibu sedih, inget adekmu" 

"Jangan nangis.. Adek disana belajar, InsyaAllah ibu dapet surga",. Aku benci melihat dia nangis kayak semalem.

Memaafkan..itu mudah.. Kamu hanya perlu memberikan sedikit ruang pada rasa kasih,dan peduli.
Mungkin seperti itu.

Ketika ada seorang meminta maaf, percayalah, Itu Tulus. Dari hati yang paling dalam.
Percayalah. Dia benar-benar ingin berdamai dengan hatinya, Dengan kamu.

C(y)

Sosok lelaki beralis tebal itu sudah menungguku di bawah pohon oak, memegang payung kecil dan ia melemparkan senyum hangatnya kepadaku. Pertigaan Simpang terlihat sunyi malam ini. Hanya deru motor di kejauhan, bahkan pangkalan ojek juga tidak luput dari kesepian. Seolah alam semesta saling bercengkerama satu sama lain,sepakat bahwa malam ini aku harus menemui dirinya.

"Apa kabar,Mendung?"

Aku membalas senyumnya... Setidaknya masih ada dia. Aku menghampirinya,berdiri berhadapan

dengannya, kupegang payung yang dia pegang. Malam begelayut, udara dingin menusuk tulang tapi aku bisa merasakan kehangatan hatinya.

"Hai ...", jawabku pendek, berusaha mencari kalimat selanjutnya yang lebih bijaksana daripada langsung mengatakan bahwa 'segala sesuatunya telah menjadi buruk'.

"Hai ...".

.cloud(y).

 

Les Miserables's song

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

Kiss The Rain~

I often close my eyes
and I can see you smile :)
You reach out for my hand and I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine,it's hollow inside
I never had your love and i never will..

And every night, I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me like I've always love you
but how can you love me like i love you,
when you can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way, to be so in love
To have someone there..
Yet feel so alone..
Aren't you supposed to be, the one to wipe my tears
The one to say, that you would never leave..

The water calm and still,

My reflection is there
I see you holding me, but then you dissapear
All that is left of you is a memory
on that only exists in my dream..

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much, to know that I can't do athing
And deep down in my heart somehow I just know..
That no matter what I'll always love you.

So,why am I still here in the rain?

*Lagu ini.. :')

I know that healing takes time. But how much time are you gonna take?
Too much will be a mistake.
:')

Memo

Bukan tentang cinta..hanya ingin melihat wajahmu.
Bukan tentang suka..hanya ingin melihat wajahmu.
Bukan tentang memikirkanmu..hanya ingin melihat wajahmu.
Itu saja.

Please..Stop asking me anymore, and you don't have to answer.

Walk pass just to met him. Keep his tihings as souvenir. Call him just to hear his voice or maybe to face him directly..
Time changes,People changes, but the heart remains true.
You have to come this far,you must fight to the end!